Really surprised me......^^

25.02.2009(wed) raining day
Today was really surprising me………
My all pg friends came to alor star find me…..
At first I knew that abuba will come to AS today as she said want to eat kedah food……
However, at noon abuba called that saying they cancelled the AS trip d….
As she said the reason is phaik ji n mei chen them were busy and can’t come d…..
So, that time I really expected they will not come d…. so I not mind so much…
As they always say want coming here but never come before…..

Haha… how I know that this time they just played me…..
When I was log on the internet…. Suddenly I heard that a guy calling me..
So I went out the room and saw who was that….
That is loon……. So , I opened the door to let him get into my house……
Suddenly phaik ji them appeared in front my eyes…..
There were 7 person standing outside my house……
They are abuba, phaik ji, mei chen, loon, jesus, wan jun and yang chuang….
That time they still bring a “small girl” cake and tiramishu cake….
I really surprise about it..
That time I really touched about they come so far to celebrate my birthday….Although is 4 days earlier than my birthday……
At first abuba taught that I like to eat tiramishu cake……so, they just bought a tiramishu cake for me…..
Actually I like to eat chocolate cake…..hehe…
But that time I really happy about it… the cake is delicious… I like the flavor also…
Thanks you all guys ya…. I really appreciate it….

After that I brought them go to eat lemak laksa.. as it is famous in AS…
Who knew that abuba said not nice to eat….
Mayb the laksa we bought is quite cold d…..the workers didn’t make it hot…so It felt not nice to eat…. Nvm…. Next time I bring u to eat asma laksa ya…haha….

After that we go star parade to play bowling and skating…..
I like to play bowling coz I seem like can strongly throw the ball to hit the goal…..
It seems like hitting my enemy….it’s feeling great…haha….
After that loon them wanted to play skating…..
I really scare about skating… as I not really know to play ice skating at sunway before….
Aldo I like it… but I don’t like falling down….haha…
After forcing by them all … so I just went to play it….
After playing a while.. I think that skating is easier than ice skating…..
Luckily abuba and jesus taught me to play…Or not I also not goo d in playing about it….^^

During the dinner time we went to Wang Tepus there to have Thailand food……
It’s really nice that we can eat thai food…..besides abuba and I ordered a coconut jelly to eat… it’s delicious also…..^^
Before they backed to pg..….we still go to eat puri that near Taman Rakyat…..
During that time I really want to order a puri to eat one….however, my stomach was fulled d.. so I not dare to order… scare will getting fatter……

Today I really surprised about that they will come to celebrate my birthday……
I said thanks to them all….. I really appreciate it… I said real one….^^



the "little girl" cake.... actually is my closed friends wan calling girl..haha

playing bowling at star parade(alor star)......haix....i'm not good in playing bowling...just get 74....

pic taking after finish playing bowling........dunno which one is my leg d...mayb the fattest one...haha...

pic taking in front the skating rink.....

KL and Genting trip 2009(part 3)

DAY 5
After check out frm genting….. we went back to KL….
We went to Time Square again..
Having our dinner at Sushi King…..
That time abuba came to meet us… I introduced her to my another 2 friends….
Abuba quite shy that time… after that she just back d…..
We three went shopping for a few mins as we need to watch wait for watching our movie…..
While we shopping .. we saw many handsome guy…. And frm them I know to differentiate who is p and who is normal… as I not really pro like them la…haha…..
And thanks for learning frm them this skill…haha…..

DAY 6
The last day at kl d…… after packing my luggage… Jeremy fetched me back to kl…
As I need to go back pg by bus at 4.30pm……
Before going back… I n him n abuba went to sungei wang to hv our lunch at kim gary restaurant….^^
At there we still some photo.. we all look like “sampat” guy la….haha…..
after having lunch I went to a shop lot to buy a handbag….
So that I will not feel so empty when back to pg…as I didn’t buy anything to myself during this 6 days kl trip…..
After that Jeremy fetched us to Pudu Station……then I back at 5 pm as we still need to wait the bus…..haha…


At last we finish our 6 days trip d…….at first I felt not fun at all during at kl……
But after thinking back … it’s really fun… especially during go for clubbing and the day at genting….
Firstly, at MOS clubbing it’s really great…. It’s happy to go together wif abuba n mei chen them…
I really enjoy at there…. I promised myself I will go there again wif them so that we can play and dance together
Secondly, I really cherish about I can meet Gabriel and Jeremy there…
Although we three have no enough time to meet together... and we three still can’t ”sampat” together until we all crazy….
Nvm la… when next time I come to kl study d we continue “sampat” again n see leng zai ya…haha…… Jeremy n Gabriel……. WAIT ME YA…. Haha…..

Aldo I came kl for 6 days I just regret that I didn’t really shopping at all…
As mayb I too tired d… too tired on walking frm KTM to MONORIAL and to STARLINE…
Walk to here to there….. the body full of sweat…….so will not hv mood to shopping….
I didn’t buy anything I like…… i think next time I need to enjoy my shopping…
To buy a lot of things I want…haha…

Therefore, KL…..U WAIT ME YA……..





taken in Kim Gary Restaurant(sungei wang).... actually many ppl around us ons... we really shy and "sampat" took pic at there...haha....

me n abuba......

me n jeremy.....

KL and Genting trip 2009(part 2)

DAY 3
After staying one night at the bad room.. we finally can went back to KL d……
However, MC,YC and WC needed to go back hometown d….
So just left me, Abuba, Jesus, Phaik Yan and Da bing staying at kl…….

Before we all separated back to our destination… we had our lunch at JW MARRIOT Hotel…
There is a Shang Hai restaurant…… they said many artist frm other countries came here to eat before one…it’s very famous… even my idol, lee hom came here before….haha…..
We ate a lot of things that is really nice…… expecially the “tang pau”… something like a pau one…Inside have soup one…. Really nice…..
Besides, we still eat some desert there… all is shang hai food…..

After that went to Time Square shopping…..
As they accompany me to wait my closed friend, Jeremy to fetch me……
After Jeremy fetching me we went to take our dinner.. and it’s almost 10 pm d…..
As we can say is our supper la….haha….
After that, I stay one night at his house…
I really shy about staying there… as my friend let me sleep on his bed then he sleep on floor…
As he said I am de guest for him….
That time I really shy abt it…… and really thankful for it……

DAY 4
We woke up at 10am something…..
We went outside Jeremy’s house to wait Gabriel to fetch us to Genting……
He is also my another closed friend……

After he fetching us.. we went to tesco to buy some food to eat at genting..
After that we arrived at genting is about 4pm d…it’s quite late d…
That time we felt no mood to go theme park playing d…..
So we just went to play haunted house…
We three seem like a big guy and said will not worry about the ghost in the haunted house…

Who knew that when we entered the haunted house… we all seem like a little girls very scare about it,……haha…
We were screaming as loud as we can…. Actually the ghost is not scary at all..
But I also dunno why we three will be like this……. Haha…….
But I really enjoy it… as we three first time playing together so it’s feeling great… it’s really let us closed together…. I mean in our friendship…..^^




shang hai reataurant....

pic taken in the restaurant....

"tang pau".. i like it very much....^^

the pig ears....

the desert...

the desert...

KL and Genting trip 2009(part 1)

23.02.2009(mon) raining day
After 6 days trip to KL and Genting…. Feeling that very tired and seem like no more energy…..
Haha ….. Actually I not enjoy the KL trip…as maybe my closed friends not going together…
So, I will feel boring there…
However, sometime is quite fun one… especially at Sunway and Genting….hehe….
So let me one by one to tell u about de trip…… :

DAY 1……
We arrived in KL about 1pm….so it will not rush for us to check in the hotel….
We stayed at JW MARRIOT HOTEL…. Is a 5 star hotel……It just opposite the Pavilion…..


It’s really a luxury hotel that I haven’t stayed before……
When we entered the room…. I saw two big beds and about 38 inch of LCD tv placed in front the beds……. It’s really high standard n I really like it……..
The washroom is fully furnished….. whatever you want will provided in the washroom…
Such as the shower gel…… shampoo….conditioner……and so on…
N de most important is bath salt is provided for us to do spa when taking bath….
Besides the view through our room’s window is a whole row of branded shop of PAVILION
Nice right??^^


After taking bath.. we continued our kl trip….
We went to klcc shopping a while….. that I really felt tired d…..as we walked for more than 30 mins frm bus station to our hotel …. Sure tired la…
So, that time I really no mood to buy the things I like d….

DAY 2
We woke up early as we need to keep our luggages to go next station…. That is SUBANG JAYA….


As this is the main purpose we came to KL……. CLUBBING….haha……
Early morning Abuba brought us to eat fish head meehoon soup….
The soup is make of milk one… really nice… I like it…….
After that we just started our journey frm KL to SUBANG….
We get a MONORIAL n KTM to there..... Ii’s about 35 mins….
After arriving SUBANG JAYA… we can’t even get a taxi…
So, we needed to walk frm KTM station to our hotel….
It’s really far….. we walked until our body feeling sweat… and it’s really uncomfortable….
That time I really want cry d….
But never mind I told myself as long as I achieve my purpose to clubbing then the energy that I wasted is worth one……
After walking 30 mins…. Finally we arrived our hotel d… that is SUN INN Hotel……
That time I taught I really can rest for a while and get a cool air cond…..
However, we just know that the room that provided to us just big as my house’s toilet…


That time really angry and getting mad d…..
Abuba can’t control her patient d… so she straight went to ask the worker to change the room for us……
After that they changed a family package room for us… inside 2 single beds and 2 double beds are provided… luckily is enough for us to sleep d…… I satisfied on it d….
But just a big different we stayed in 5 star hotel and 2 star hotel….. haix….
I advised myself again don’t care so much… as long as I can go clubbing then I felt happy d….^^


The first time I go clubbing… it’s really fun and I enjoy abt it…..
We went MOS(by ministry of sound) clubbing…..Some ppl called it EUPHORIA…… it’s really famous in SUBANG area….
I really like the stage at there… and de sound n light is really nice……
When clubbing there I just drank abit alcohol….. as I scared I’ii getting allergy…..
After that.. Abuba taught me to dance…..
At first I not dare to dance because I really scare about it…
However, after that I like to dance d…. as mayb I drank some alcohol… so I dare to dance in front the dancing stage…..^^
I really enjoy it….. the place really nice n high standard……
But something i unhappy was I can’t see handsome guy there…. It’s really maked me unhappy lo…haha…..









taken in front skating area....

ice skating rink of Sunway Pyramid....

taken after finish clubbing at MOS...

phaik yan, abuba, jesus, me n mei chen......

MOS dancing stage.... really nice.....very sorry ya.. just can show u all one pic.....

MOS(by ministry of sound) also called Euphoria....

we all slept d when sitting KTM to subang jaya.....

during tea time... we eat donuts at J'co.....

mee hoon soup make wif milk one.....quite nice....

when midnite i chat wif abuba until 4am... after that we had no place to sleep d... then we just slept at corridor...very pity rite...haha.... we still hav some tea in front de door...haha...

人是自私吗????

今天想用华语来写部落各……..
因为我始终觉得华语才能表达我最深的感受…(其实是英文不好啦…哈哈…^^)
在晚上..我和一位朋友交谈…..
他问了我一个问题….. “我是自私吗??””
我问他为什么…..他说最近感情上出现了问题……..
他发觉在那男友不在他身边的期间…他像是爱上了另一个人….
而那个人也很喜欢他……他说他现在很烦…是不是该放弃现在的男友与他走呢??
或是继续与他男友在一起呢??
他再一次说他是不是很自私…….

或许很多人会觉得第三者是永远不对的…… 因为他让会破坏一段美好的感情….
只是从来没人站在他们的立场想过…….
我告诉他…..爱一个人不是自私的…..爱上一个人就是爱上一个人嘛…
你也没得选择…….他也没得选择…..
如果说介入你们的是第三者….你觉得第三者错吗??
我觉得没有…因为他也是爱上他喜欢的人…爱一个人是没错的…..

只是每当你喜欢一个人的时候……
一定是要凭你的心去喜欢一个人……
而不是凭感觉去喜欢一个人………
这样你才会找到你真真喜欢与期待的恋情………..
但是你说问我的意见的话…..
虽让我赞成第三者没有很错……..只是我不会直接与我的男友分手咯…..
因为我觉得这样会伤害到他….. 对他的不尊敬……..
所以每一次我要开始新的一段感情..我都考虑了很久才会下定决心滴..
不会鲁莽地做决定…因为我不想后悔找到一个我不爱的人…..
我会给我们三个人一段时间去了解………
去了解我到底喜欢的人是谁……
你们呢???? 会和我一样的答案吗???
我希望他有了他的答案……

亲爱的爸妈。。。我是同志《转贴》

亲爱的爸妈,我是同志(转贴) 【答】


亲爱的爸妈,我是同志(转贴)亲爱的爸妈,
我是同志早在前几年前就知道这本书的存在，

一直没机会买到，
在偶尔逛图书馆时让我发现了这本书，

第一时间就租下来看。在这里跟大家分享。

书里的故事都是真实的，
有对父母和孩子的对话，

这些故事是经过无数的分秒，
年月堆积，一步一步走来。有看到争吵，有看不见的挣扎，亲子间的泪水漫溢。


看着许多亲子间的奋斗和扶持，会让未来的路产生更多的可能。
父母总是最后才才被考虑告诉的对象，这是许多同志无奈的决定。

因为所有的困难当中，要子女冒着让父母失望的风险。。。害怕父母收回对自己的疼爱，是所有同志最难之处。



当孩子告诉父母自己是同志时，
突然之间母子变得很陌生，
好遥远；
同时也担心告诉孩子的爸，会带来前所未有的风暴。

有的父母知道自己的孩子是同性恋后不知所措，希望了解同志是什么，
有的担心因为孩子是同志而被外在的环境猁[视和压迫；
有的则是承受社会对于同性恋污名的影响担心孩子的同性恋是先天还是后天；
有的则担心孩子是否会得到爱滋病，社会工作上总总的压力，或者孩子老了后没人照顾。
有的情绪是激动，希望孩子回心转意。



包挂限制孩子的行动，强迫孩子接受精神医科的治疗，言语的胁逼。
眼前只有两条路，一是孩子能变回爱女人，
然后结婚生子，不然就只好不认这个孩子，
从此母子一刀两断。


怎样都好，而父母最不放心的还是孩子老了以后由谁来照顾。
这是最深的牵挂，一想到孩子老来孤苦伶仃无依的结局，
简直让人无法接受。

其实每个父母都一样，看着别人的孩子是同志可以接受 ，
可是看到自己的孩子是同志却难过。

就算接受了，还得面对亲友的压力，
也不会用[同性恋]这3个字，只用，[那个]，[那种人]，[你的朋友]来形容同性恋。
他们也许开始会找寻许多同性恋的资源。


其实最感人的 ，
还是看到一个母亲知道孩子是同志后晚上偷偷的流眼泪……
他们的父母陪着孩子一起学做同志，保护孩子，每个父母都只要孩子快乐的。


另外，故事里一个母亲去找心理治疗师，
他知道这位母亲有宗教信仰，又问到她喜欢那位菩萨 。
母亲说观音菩萨，他说那你就想象你是观音菩萨。

因为观音菩萨可以接受不同的人。
原来，学佛也是可以让人平静。
你父母有学佛吗？



后记：我到现在为止都没告诉我父母，
记得有一个时候，
我姐看到我电脑里有男孩子的裸照，
告诉我母亲。
等我回到家时她就问我：怎么....你姐在你电脑看到有男孩子的裸照？

那时我吃惊的回答她是电脑被hack了。

也许她心里有答案，
可是有时不时会跟我说不要像我哥那样，
结婚要办喜宴之类的。


恩，真不知道他们是真知道还是收在心里，
他们也没问到有没女朋友之类的。


我也没想过要告诉他们还是什么的，
一方面是怕他们伤心难过吧（我很怕人哭得）一方面也想同性恋真的有未来吗？


10个同志就有8个结婚，不外是受不了家里社会的压力，
不然就是悲观看不到未来不想老来无伴而结婚。


不久将来，我也许会是那八个的其中一人。
很多时候，我们都知道这不是谁的错，
而是社会的保守和没有提供父母及同志友善的资源。


没有一个父母生下孩子就知道自己的孩子是同性恋，
也没有管道教这些父母及子女如何面对这些问题。

可是当你告诉或不小心让你的父母知道你是同性恋，
会让他们逼进一个我们已经躲很久的框子里，请给他们多点时间，想想你自己在意识下知道自己喜欢同性时，是花了多少时间来接纳自己并认同自我的性倾向？


如果你因为出框跟父母断绝关系，是不是时候跟你的家人联络？
毕竟你的朋友，男朋友始终不是最亲的，有什么问题家里是第一个站出来。

家人是永远的，男朋友和朋友是吗？
如果你真的想跟你父母出框，又不知道怎样说，也许可以放这本书在他们的床头。

到现在我还是相信同性恋的相爱是有可能的，互相照顾也是存在的。
当有一天大家相信同志是普通人的时候，那么大家就可以相信，我们自然会找到缘分深的人留在身边扶持。

Finally finish my exam d.....^^

5 feb 2009(fri) sunny



wakaka...finally my exam finished d......
at last i can rest for a 3 weeks holiday n go to relax a while.....
it's been a long time not write blog d.. so let me conlude about what had happened for this week...

it really makes me tired for whole week and i can't easily enjoy my cny's holiday..

however in the first week of cny i still enjoy it because A closed friend frm mlk coming to find me in Penang…
For sure I brought him go to eat a lot of pg food that is yummy n delicious one…….For example pg laksa, cendol, seafood, chicken rice, wantan mee n so on,,,,
Hoping that not disappointed him for the 4 days trip in pg n forgiving me if u getting fatter…hahaha….

After that I having exam frm 3 to 5 feb… I spent whole day to study my financial management n law…… hoping that can score on both subjects…
However, during de exam hall I didn’t know how to do the financial test… I just a stupid guy that did not revision back my tutorial (exercise) as the questions that came out is 100% same like the tutorial…I felt regret that I didn’t study hard……now I just hope that I can pass my exam…..

Another thing that makes me feeling sad n no mood one is for my exam day….
I received a news from my friend saying that our coursemate has been pass away because of a severe car crash….. I felt shocked after listening this news….
Although I don’t know about him…but we will always meet in college during the lecture hour…
Suddenly feeling that we can’t c him anymore in college….feeling that someone will be disappeared in our life forever n forever….. feeling sad to say about it….
It just makes me thinking that we can’t expect what will happened in future….
But we just can promise ourselves that we need to do the best thing we can do from now….
To fight for our life…..
So that we will not regret in future……